I feel like work has takin over my life. I can’t have any freedom or anything. I miss talking to my girlfriend too. She has athritous and it has hurt her a lot. I trully hope she feels better. It makes me feel bad when I can’t be there to help her. All I can say is, ” I hope you feel better.” But i wanna say more. I wanna take her temp and bring her food. Also i miss talking to her. I havent heard her voice since july 12th and its hurting me a lot. I miss knowing that shes there for me. I know its hard for her to be there all the time with her sickness so i just have to tell that to myself but i really miss it. I miss her funny pics when she would send them to me. And now for me. If there is two words i could say its. “im sorry.” Im sorry that i have been a mean boyfriend for not talking about anything and making things seem really short. Im sorry that I cant be there for her when im all the way up here when she needs me most. Im sorry that I work so much that it seems like its a daily task. And now with school its going to be worse. But what is making me really sad is that honestly that i cant see her. :( Its not fair that other guys can see her and talk to her. Its not fair how other guys can make her laugh and smile. It makes me feel like the worst bf ever. I try not to be jealous but it hurts sometimes when really i wanna be there for her. When shes at school its going to hurt a lot when there are other guys. I know she probully feels the same way how there are other girls here but no one is nice to me. I try to be a nice person. But i really have no friends at all here. I have no one to talk to. i have no friends to make me laugh or smile or hang out with. even other guys. i have no guy friends either. Its wierd because i really dont even pay attention to girls because it makes me sad that its not sue. There not like sue. Sue is the most amazing, pretty, funny, she always has a smile, she is strong, she is brave, and she is talented. she is the most amazing and to meeee most perfect girlfriend. The biggest thing that meant a lot to me was when i was on vacation in Tampa to see her. I went there and I had to stay with someone else but she wanted to see me everyday and spend every moment with me. And she chose me over everything and anything. If there was another friend she would want to be with me. If she had to chose to be friends with someone or with me she chose me. that made me feel special. But i really do miss sue. She has no idea how much she has made me happy. Yea i might be sad how other people can see her and make her laugh but i know she love me. I think that i say, “i love you, or, i miss you” to much but thats because shes my friend too. its hard to not say it when you have no one else to talk to. if i had to chose to go be with her or have my old life, in a heart beat i would say be with her. I cant lose sue. I dont care what other people say anymore. because its our life not thiers. And I love her and she loves me. She is the best girlfriend. I love her a lot. *kiss* i love you sue. If you read this sue i want you to know i always want to be with you forever and that one day i will marry you and i will be yours. I want to have a kid with you one day. It can have your hair, your eyes, your nose, your everything and my last name. Sue you are the world to me and i would do anything to keep you forever. I wish i could be living there to give you a giant hug and not let go. <3 i love you gf. forever i promise.
Brett <3 :)
I need you sue…
I need you so badly. Its almost 13 months and i miss you a lot. Times stink how long distance has to happen. I get mad when people say oh im in a long distance, and I say really how far, and they say an hour. Its like ugh an hour they shouldnt even complain. We have over a thousand miles between us. Its more than an hour plane ride and i would do anything to take that plane everyday to see you. When a lot of girls are depressed or hurt their boyfriends dont even want to be with them. I get so mad because if i could be with you even if it was only when you were hurt or depressed I would. I can’t live without you. When I saw you at the airport after three months of waiting it was like the best feeling in the world. I ran over to you and picked you in the air, spun you around, and gave you a kiss. I dont care anymore what other people think when they see us. Because when im with you sue I dont even think about anyone else. As I sit up here in Maryland i wish i could have a time machine so that i could go to the day when we marry. Sue I just want to say that if I could be with you even when we argue or when youre depressed or even if youre pmsing its okie. Because every moment makes me happy. I know that you are the one. I know you are the one that makes me smile and want to be with. I dont care about money, food, water, or anything…but you. I need you. You are the thing i need in my life. Friends even try to break us apart but we are so much in love that we dont even listen to them. Even your dad might not like us but i know that in the end he will because i will take care of you forever. I wish i was there to put that ice on your leg or make you soup if you get hungry. Dont ever let anyone tell you that you arent a good girlfriend because how would they know…they were never your boyfriend. Only me, and I say that you are the best girlfriend ever. When ever you text me or send me a pic of anything it makes me happy because i know you are thinking about me. You are the first one i text in the morning. I dont even need any other friends. Drugs they are over rated. Those things are discusting. Smoking, even when i turned 18 i never bought them because i know that it will make life shorter and i want to spend every moment im aloud to be with you. And drinking, i never need to do because im never depressed. I always have you to talk to. Sue i love you a lot. Just know that im always thinking about you. I hope that your athritous gets better. Sorry about my grammer. I just miss you a lot sue. And i always will. <3